Free to Love

I am so thankful for being forced to sit at home and heal. Although I really do not enjoy having to ask Audra to do everything for me, the Lord is showing me just how amazingly wonderful she is through her desire to take care of me. I am such an incredibly blessed man. It's often hard for me to fathom the fact that Audra really is who she has shown herself to be. Sometimes I wonder if she really has the heart that I think she does. And time after time her heart is proven to be true. For so many years I really thought that a woman with Audra's heart didn't exist. I'm not just saying this because she is my wife either. The Lord has blessed her with a heart to love which surpasses all thoughts I have ever had about love. If anyone reads this I want you to know one thing, there really are women who will love you and that will have hearts that are absolutely captivating. Don't settle for a woman that loves you more than she loves the Lord, because if Audra didn't love the Lord more than she loves me then she wouldn't have the ability to love me like she does. and the same goes for me, I have to love the Lord more than I love her. You see, it is not my job to love her, it is my job to be obedient to the Lord so He can love her through me. I know if you think of the times that you've tried to love someone by yourself it ended up being a flop. If we want to love or receive love, then we need to draw near to the love giver. Thats not just my opinion, thats scriptural. If you find that you have a hard time loving somebody, STOP TRYING YOURSELF!!!!! take it to the Lord and ask him to begin removing those things in your heart which are hindering God from loving people through you. And I promise that He will. God will still show His love for those we are around even if we are disobedient and not looking towards the Lord for guidance, but why miss the blessing of Christ living through us?

OUCH!!!!!!!

I just had knee surgery and WOW!!!! it hurts so bad. "Okay Josh quit being a baby" I really have the best wife in the world. Audra has been helping so much with everything i need. I love you sweetheart and thank you for loving me so much and being patient with me. Oh and for being a Hot prego lady HAHAHAHA

Baby Time!!!!!

Today I have been continually realizing that soon, and very soon I am going to be given the most honorable responsibility that God give to mankind. Raising Children and being a God fearing husband and father to my family. While the thought of this sometimes instills fear into my mind, I have an advantage over it. Here it is... I Don't have to raise them or be a good husband in my own strength or wisdom. I have the Lord to do that for me. And in that thought I am at total peace with the task the Lord has given to me. Thank you Father for the willingness you have to love and raise my family through me. And thank You for the honor of serving You.

I am so very blessed to have such a beautiful pregnant wife and a handsome son baking in her belly. I love you babey. Thanks for carrying Jr.

whoot whoot

Well thanks be to my lovely wife helping me set this blogger thing up I am finally able to blog. so here is my first blog.